Are you thinking about taking your own life? Are you thinking about how, if you killed yourself, nobody would care, nobody would miss you, no one would be altered in the slightest? Well think again. Just stop and think for a moment. If you kill yourself you will change somebodies world. Their whole entire world. They will see everything differently. Just hearing your name will burn their mind with thoughts and memories of you. They wont be able to go near where you lived, even your town will hold memories. Listening to the radio they’ll hear that song, that song you sang with them once. They’ll step past your locker every day and wonder why you are not there. Why are you not there? Do you want to be responsible for your family members, the people who love you, crying every night? For your sisters or brothers losing part of who they are? Your suicide is going to effect most deeply those who care about you most. The ones who love you more than anything will be the most broken. That’s not right. One of your friends will probably break down, and just like you, their world will be dark. The pain you are in is unbelievably terrible, I know, I’ve been through it, but why pass it on to hundreds of people around you, when you could try your hardest to work through it and overcome it? Your family will be paranoid. Suddenly everyone will be talking about them. Do you want to be known as ‘the kid who killed themselves?’ People you never knew will be crying when they hear what you’ve done. Yes, they will be effected. Everyone around you will stop and think “was there something i could have done?” Suddenly the people of your world are dying with sadness and guilt. All those little hints you gave, they’ll remember them and it will torture them all the time. Your friends will think of suicide. Your closest friends are likely to go into a depression like the one that claimed your life. How will they cope, without you? Who will help them? This will break them, for the rest of their lives. And lets not forget the people who will plan your funeral. Your closest friends and family picking out songs for you, photos of you. Crying all the night before, and all the day of your funeral. And all the night after. In fact, they will cry now more than you ever did, I know that for sure. Could they have saved you? They’ll be angry. They’ll wonder why you didn’t tell them. They loved you. They love you. And now it’s too late. They’ll be angry with you because they know that you could have gotten through it. They know that you’re stronger than and better than suicide. Then they’ll be angry with themselves because they may have been able to save you if only they knew. And one day, one day years from now, they’ll remember you. They will all still remember you. The girl that you had classes with but never talked to, she’ll remember you. The bus driver you saw every morning, he’ll remember you. That little girl you saw in the store once, the kid you leant money to once, all of your siblings friends, the people that you dont see, but that see you everyday they will all remember you. And every single one of them will wonder why. Why did you do it? Why couldn’t you have beat it? Why didn’t you tell them and let them help you? Why’d you have to leave them. Why why why. But imagine your family. You are part of them. Without you, something is missing. If you killed yourself then part of them dies too. They are incomplete. Every family gathering will be missing something. The photos on the wall are suddenly all cold reminders of what you did. Who goes through your bedroom? Who cleans out your locker? Who calls the school to tell them one of their students has died? Who tells the students? Who calls the funeral directors? Who arranges a coffin for you? Who calls your best friend to tell them you’re dead? Who finds you?Please, there are other ways out. I know sometimes the struggle is very, very hard. But it’s not worth giving up on life. Life is all we have, life is everything. Its the beautiful moments, but also the sad ones. Please, don’t give up on all those around you. You can make it through. My teacher said this about her father, who commited suicide: “I understand that the pain is overwhelming, but I will never forgive him for the pain he has caused others. It was just selfish. If you kill yourself you spread the suffering among thousands of people, it doesn’t only affect those around you but everyone who has ever come in contact with you.” Please, keep fighting. You can get through this and see that there is life after what you’re facing now. It may be hard, but you’ll get there, and when you do you will appreciate it so much more. I understand that most people know that suicide effects others, but please keep this in mind if you’re ever considering suicide as an option. Just give people the chance to help you, you can be helped. There’s so much more to life, and things will get better, I can guarantee that. I’ve been there, I’ve had the thoughts burning in my mind too, so don’t think that you’re alone in this. You have to overcome the thoughts, please.
Seriously, someone out there loves you and would be broken without in their life. And even if you think your worthless and can’t find that person in your life, i will miss you. If you ever need someone to talk to and need help getting through this, don’t hesitate to leave something in my ask. i’ll be there for you please don’t kill yourself tonight, love.